on twinkle toes. 
WHOOT check this out:
and this one:
and this:
MUAHAHA. everything changes when the tables are turned.
AND. i just turned down the internship that i was suuuuper bent on getting.
GAH. i hope i dont regret this decision.
so this holidays, i plan to:
1) get a part-time jobbb
2) play alot of TOUUUUCH (if possible. i need to find people! haha)
3) go for artscamp (EUGENE TOH, GIMSIONG, CLEMENT &XIAOHUI i will force you FOUURRR to go)
4) finish up oweek
5) take special sem..? (maybe, maybe not).
6) TRAVVVEL totally ruined, thanks to swine flu. GROWLS.
cant wait. really need a break from everything's that been going on this sem.
TWO papers down! three more to go :(
because everything's worked out exactly the way i imagined it to be.
and i'm not happy. mom just got out of the hospital,
granddad's in hospital,
dad's good friend's in hospital.
everyone's in hospital.
:(
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
- Hebrews 11:1
one paper down. four more to go! OMGGG.
one will never really know how stressful it is to speak a full length conversation in cantonese until you try to converse with your grandparents.
trying not to care.
because nothing's going to change anyway.
exams start tmr! :( for me, anyway.
all the best to everyone, whether they've alr started or not.
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my dad says, "yes, go work. don't be a parasite."
:(
[/edit] it's 4am &i'm wide awake.
i think i'm getting used to the weird hourrrs. this is NOT good.
been trying to do abit of last minute mugging before the papers start next monday.
headed to serene's just now, and it was surprisingly quiet. TOO quiet, in fact.
they switched off ALL the lights in serene's centre, leaving one lighted near the toilets &in the toilet itself, so it's scary as hell. in fact, if not for the fact that i needed to pee, i would probably have lasted longer (i think).
on a random note, to the person who called my name TWICE (once when i left &once when i got back): dont call out a person's name &conveniently decide that you're not going to acknowledge that you were the one doing the calling. it's IRRITATING. esp at 3.40 in the morning.
on a lighter note,
the hamsters gave birth! (: so now we have FIVVE awesome small babies.
supposedly SIX, according to zhen, but one was eaten :(
pictures up soon! once i get my lazy ass to charge my camera so i can take pictures of them.
okay.
not so awake anymore. signs that one has been playing too much mousehunt.
scenario: zhen's sister thinks that the hamster is pregnant &advises us to buy a new cage to separate the two.
me: "okay! i think it's safer. let's go buy another TRAP tomorrow."
OMGGG. ultimate sadness. 2 notable incidents of this ever boring day.
1) i broke TWO hairbands in a week. okay i knew my head was big, but it couldnt have grown THAT fast, can it? :S
2) my dad went to book tickets to CATS without telling my sister &i. sounds good? NO, he did not book tickets for us. he secretly booked tickets for my mom &himself :( WAILS.
i want to go shopping :(
(and to the girls reading my blog, ASOS IS HAVINGGGG A SALE! something i really should not notice, but hey. they drop me emails all the time.) before the worst.
alot of things have been running through my mind later.
too many things, in fact.
and. so many things i want to say, but i cant, for obvious reasons. obvious to me, anyway.
sigh.
i think i'm just stressed.
HAPPY BELATED 21ST TO EUGENETOHYEWKEAT aka evil twwwwin (: happy easter! (:
okay. belated easter, by the time i publish this entry.
this past one week has been really tiring, and i think i almost died, though thankfully, i didnt.
screw the results (for now.). i will enjoy the thought of only having one project left. unfortunately, it really is quite big, but.. i'll live. i hope.
wednesday: celebrating myboy's belated birthday! (: we went for sakae buffet, then went shopping around for gene's birthday present (:
thursday: breakfast with myboy! (: before heading to school to study &stuff.
friday: tried to study, though it didnt work, cos i was relishing the feel of only having one project left, and there was this uber awesome set of criminal investigations hongkong drama series. went to shop for gene's present in the evening, before heading down to aranda for his birthday (:
hope you like your present my dear twin brother (: happy early 21st!
saturday: study study study. no, it didnt work. once again i was relishing the joy of having only one project. and in that time, i FORGOT about the one project -.-
sunday: sab messaged in the morning, reminding me about that one project! :( so i went home and i tired to rush it out, relishing the inbetween breaks. dinner was at botak jones with the family, where my dad happily decided to call it 'papa jones' instead. P.S.: my dad's new favourite show is "the devil wears prada" -.-
summary: no work has been done. waaails.
i'm sleepy.
zzzZZZ. to the dearest, sweetest boy ever (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:
iloveyouu <3
*hugs* the people upstairs are moving around again.
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i hate it when people take others for granted.
and i hate it when people mock me.
my dad's doing things for you out of good will, yet you're taking him for granted &expecting him to accommodate to YOUR time and YOUR schedule, both of which he has already done. if you dont want to go from the start, dont drag your bloody feet. take a step back and look at the situation and even a 10 year old can tell you that you're not being the most pleasant thing in the world. i wish my dad would stop treating you so nicely because i've had enough.
and i'm sorry i'm not as perfect as she is, not as smart, not as capable, not as independent, and i'll always be NOTHING compared to that darling of yours.
and i've had ENOUGH. i'm not stupid; i can tell when you're being sarcastic &when you're being nice. so dont expect to get away with everything &expect me to treat you nicely. this sarcasm has stretched since chinese new year, and i remember every single incident, even though i dont remember every single word.
so stop putting people down to make yourself feel better.
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yes, i'm bitter.
this is what happens when you grow up with people putting you down,
comparing you to others and discretely telling you that you'll never be as good as the next person. so today is april fools', and jingwei managed to prank me -.- and all it took was one stupid sms.
marcus tried to lie and say the ramly burger stall caught fire WHEN THERE WAS NO RAMLY BURGER STALL TODAY. hahahaha.
plus 1st of april marks the day i've started mafia wars.
this week so far,
one project down, one presentation down, another presentation down after tmr!
two more presentations, one project and a 50% test to go.
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amidst this busy period, i've turned my back on God, and now i'm making a u-turn back.
somehow i can only seem to find comfort in knowing that He is with me.
"So do not fear, for i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous hand."
- Isaiah 41:10
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happy birthday ASHTONNNN, even thoughh you laughed at my hands, i forgive you :P 
and this one:
and this:
MUAHAHA. everything changes when the tables are turned.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY (: